Creation

"For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into glorious freedom of the children of God" -Romans 8:20-21

This is what I feel like, the creation that was subjected to frustration - not by my own choice but by the will of the one who subjected it. But I don't think I ever really thought about the second part of the verse and how it applied to me- in hopes that the creation itself (me) would be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into glorious freedom... the funny thing is that for the last month and a half I've been praying for freedom. Freedom from my anxieties, my anger, my tendency to grab food when I'm nervous (the whole comforting thing). I've been praying that I would not live with just a "managing" life style because at points it all just crashes down on to me. I need complete and absolute freedom from all of it.

I don't understand how subjecting creation to frustration can lead to even more freedom. I know and feel like in the last two to three months I've been hurting every single day. But knowing that it will eventually lead to freedom...well it gives me breath to breathe. It shakes my focus on this day to look forward to a new day. I've been wanting a new song to sing rather than this old "this life sucks" sort of thing. I wonder what my new song will be and when God will bring it.