Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Arev's Graduation
Arev is graduating tomorrow! She has been more than ready to kiss high school goodbye for a year now. I'm glad she will no longer be oppressed by the physical prison any more (my little inside joke- I always compare high school to a physical prison and college as a mental prison- it's always one or the other with the education system so I believe -I guess you could say I'm not a school person) anyways, she's out shopping for a dress, and Azy's coming in from Sugar Pine tomorrow to help me cheer Arev on. It's going to be a fun night I believe. Woohoo!!!
Monday, June 9, 2008
Other Places
So my job wait/search has become bearable at least. Every morning I wake up with my heart beating kind of fast because it's the first thing I think about when I wake up. Isn't that sad. Anyways, then I spend some time on the couch struggling with God while reading my Bible which eventually leads to me praying on my knees.
I realized the other day that one of the ladies at new cov had something I didn't. She works with her daughter in a cleaning service she started after she lost her husband in an accident and all income with it. Anyways, I was in one of my moods ready to start crying when I saw her come down the stairs, I turned away to avoid conversation but the funny thing was she didn't even see me. Instead I ended up watching her pick up little pieces of garbage off of the floor but what was most amazing was that she looked completely at peace, at ease, in a calm satisfied place doing it. I think it was a God moment showing me how he could bring the greatest amount of peace and satisfaction to every moment. Even moments that you would think should be sad and miserable.
She made me want what she had. There I was feeling so low and she had everything that I wanted. Why can't I just simplify my life and let God take care of things like she did with hers? Why is it so difficult for me to believe that where God wants me is where I am supposed to be regardless of how difficult it is right now. I don't know.
Anyways, today I applied to Uncle Harry's Bagels (which IS a bagelry- Jesse didn't believe that the word existed and that I was making it up until I saw it on the sign and told him so in a voice mail I sent him), checked on my application at Home Goods, picked up an application at Vonda's. That's where I am at for now. I was also mildly promised a position at the Fresno Pacific Kitchen. I was supposed to call in today to come in for an interview but when I did they pushed it back to next Monday- so we'll see if that comes through.
I realized the other day that one of the ladies at new cov had something I didn't. She works with her daughter in a cleaning service she started after she lost her husband in an accident and all income with it. Anyways, I was in one of my moods ready to start crying when I saw her come down the stairs, I turned away to avoid conversation but the funny thing was she didn't even see me. Instead I ended up watching her pick up little pieces of garbage off of the floor but what was most amazing was that she looked completely at peace, at ease, in a calm satisfied place doing it. I think it was a God moment showing me how he could bring the greatest amount of peace and satisfaction to every moment. Even moments that you would think should be sad and miserable.
She made me want what she had. There I was feeling so low and she had everything that I wanted. Why can't I just simplify my life and let God take care of things like she did with hers? Why is it so difficult for me to believe that where God wants me is where I am supposed to be regardless of how difficult it is right now. I don't know.
Anyways, today I applied to Uncle Harry's Bagels (which IS a bagelry- Jesse didn't believe that the word existed and that I was making it up until I saw it on the sign and told him so in a voice mail I sent him), checked on my application at Home Goods, picked up an application at Vonda's. That's where I am at for now. I was also mildly promised a position at the Fresno Pacific Kitchen. I was supposed to call in today to come in for an interview but when I did they pushed it back to next Monday- so we'll see if that comes through.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
The Freezing Market
I finally broke down and applied to Target, this is my last shot. I just heard that the church is freezing all hiring which is a definite no for me. oh well, I guess I wasn't too surprised to hear that. Arev called me and said she was praying for me, I suggested she pray more, lol. She's such a sweet heart. I guess there's nothing else I can do.